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[03/11/2009 / 11:32AM] |
hello internet world! whoever you are,
i've been in oklahoma for a week and a half.
the only part of all this that actually made me feel better, and less insane, was the driving part..and then we got here and it all got real and i cried for days. but i'm recovering now. and good music helps a lot. back aches and constant nosebleeds don't. ludwig gets cuter everyday, but i can feel his desire to go outside radiating off of him sometimes. we watch a lot of movies, and i make the bed usually, i have the most boring job on the planet, and it's almost tornado season.
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[01/24/2009 / 08:52AM] |
you know that feeling of being so scared that you ruined your whole fucking life and crying because you can't help it? well i just had that feeling when you realize you didn't ruin your whole fucking life and you start crying because you can't help it and you know everything will be okay and let me tell you,
i feel like one hundred dollars
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[01/14/2009 / 11:43AM] |
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`````````````i've never even given a shit
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[12/29/2008 / 08:58AM] |
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cannot wait for the day i can hang pots and pans on the walls among spatulas and sifters, collect magazines and other scraps to rip apart and glue together again, thrift for little nicka nackas and pictos and be a little pack rat again. it seems so strange that my dreams include jar collections, spice racks, fruit bowls, art supplies, thumbtacks, and tornadoes. but they have to start somewhere, and it's happening SO quickly (it's almost january! by the middle of february i'll be living in a different state -- that's six weeks away. six weeks ago feels like yesterday). it's scary, but it helps a lot to hear mike tell me stories about his old friends, the pasta shop, short and humid summers, his little nieces and nephews, and all the garage sales. i want to start saving up for a semi decent camera that won't eat batteries like my old one, and a printer/scanner really badly. this in-between part is almost over, and the really new, scary stuff is about to start. a whole new group of people to explain the term 'vegan' to! woo! and they seem to like BBQ even more than my family does. hahah, i've never imagined a future like this. i like it. even though i know i'll probably cry the whole three day drive.
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[12/27/2008 / 02:37PM] |
it's beautiful, pure, refreshing, breath taking..
but i'm already starting to loath how the rooftops blend into the sky, and my feet only reach the ground after inches of crunching and crushing, over and over.
i'm going to need a taller pair of boots very soon.
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[11/29/2008 / 04:16PM] |
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[11/26/2008 / 12:40PM] |
f you, inflamed stomach lining
i was just getting back on my feet and then had to take mike to the urgent care, caught his flu bug and spent a full 36 hours in bed.
and now i feel like i'm right back where i started. but hopefully i can get off my lazy butt and find a job soon soon.
might've found another way to get some $$..but sshhh dont tell
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[11/10/2008 / 09:29AM] |
for some extremely stupid reason, i decided to place ludwig's shit box underneath the table my computer is located on.. and now every time i use my computer, the smell of poo lingers underneath my nose.
my brain has been stuck in books, and in a very strange dreamland. sleeping and dreaming is about all i'm good for when mike is stuck in the world of warcraft, which is most of the time.
i don't blame him..i'm sure it's much more interesting than watching me sleep. he tends to disagree when i bring it up, apparently i'm 'really cute'.
i just cannot keep my eyes open. i need a hobby, obviously.
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[10/31/2008 / 05:15PM] |
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wishing we could just get in my car and start driving, but this brown house far, far away will have to do.
this halloween has been a very good one so far. the morning was surprisingly warm. i drank too much caffeine, and it has resulted in me being unable to nap with my sleepy boyfriend and ludwig, stretched above him. i am even too restless to lay down and let them keep me warm. which reminds me, tomorrow i will be continuing my search for a tea kettle;this house is much too cold to go without constant cups of tea.
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[08/30/2008 / 07:17AM] |
relentless positivity seems to be the only thing seperating me from the rest of the assholes
color changing cats and long haired boys refuse to let my hopes fall, though an unsatisfying living situation and overwhelming amounts of bagel slicing threaten my sanity everyday
but i know my mind can create this future that i see, as it has done before
differently this time as i know what i am wanting
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[08/05/2008 / 09:47PM] |
happiness at last!
i left my brain in a hot spring because i no longer need it. everything has fallen into place and i know better than ever that the future is bright bright brighter with him. i never would've thought i could catch such a fish.
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[03/31/2008 / 12:02AM] |
i am going to live here
and experience the first 08 camping trip here
along with becoming vegan, bike riding GALORE, and, as always, miss mj
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[02/17/2008 / 03:10AM] |
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I know I really need to start paying more attention to the things I've been ignoring for too long. Because when I begin to, only more of those things will be attracted to me and I can't attract anything but sad ranch and smoke rings like this. I don't know what it is that I need - a job, definitely first order of business, and a continued tolerance, second. I have a list of things to start doing that I need to write down and keep somewhere important. But I can't seem to fucking write it down
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[07/31/2006 / 05:45PM] |
 , but I will add you if you add me.
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